Ok so I love Wednesday mornings too! Who am I kidding, I love all my Training days with Mama Bootcamp. This morning was Bootcamp. The sun was shining and birds were out, the rain as much I enjoy it was gone. It wasn’t too cold, so I hydrated and ate a quick but effective breakfast (protein shake with a banana) grabbed a cliff bar and water and I was out the door.
I dropped the girls off at school, and headed to the park. I was still pumped from the night before and ready to put my body in gear. Mentally I was ready, but physically not so much.
The machine was not super excited to be put through another workout so fast. Warming up I took it easy. I didn’t push myself just easing along. I was tired and a little disappointed. When I want my body to work and it doesn’t I get really down. After the warm up, I was told to take it easy with my run. I told Holly that wouldn’t be a problem because I wasn’t sure if my legs would actually move any faster than slow.
Off I went, Yikes! It felt like I had 80lb bricks attached at the ankles, ugh. I was a lot distracted by it and irritated. I wanted to fly by like the other Tri trainer who worked out with me the night before. But my machine wouldn’t let me. I pushed and pushed and finally made it to mile 2. I then decided to walk a little while thinking that would help and also thinking about what Lorri Ann said once “don’t underestimate the power of walking”. I think as someone who loves to run and loves what running does for me mentally and physically, I often forget that.
I finally made my way back feeling discouraged, but happy that it was over and then on to workout. I had to take it really easy at one point I almost started crying, my legs where just so tired. I found my happy place and just did what I could. I realized I was no longer smiling, I was no longer happy to be there. But another thing I realized. I didn’t make an excuse or try to find a way out of staying. I wasn’t looking to leave. That is a huge breakthrough for me. I usually play scenarios in my mind about how to get out of exercising, i.e. there is always something more important to do or I just convince myself that I am not feeling well. Not this time though. I pushed right through it and was happy when it was over and really proud of myself. Yea Me.
Tomorrow….Thursday Tri Training…..Woo Hoo.